Friday, 4 September 2020

Am I pulling my boyfriend behind?


I have been in a happy committed relationship with my boyfriend “Rob” for almost four years. We met when I was a senior and he’s only two years older than me. We’ve been living together for over a year and have just rented a home together. We have a great relationship, of course there have been ups and downs but it’s been normal things. We’ve never cheated on each other or nothing has ever come up with complications from an ex, money or anything like that has never been an issue. But I’m having a super hard time trying to figure out what I’m going to study for school and figure out a career. I work a dead end job in the food industry and I hate it more than anything but it’s all I can find right now. ( I have been looking for a new job for almost a year but the pandemic has really hit me hard, I cannot seem to get something else) He has a multiple amount of skills that has landed him a great job and opportunity to grow he’s just amazing and such a handy man. But since I’m barely getting by and we have all of these goals of moving into our own built home and so many adventures, but I can’t do any of this because I’m a student struggling. We have talked about getting married one day but it’s like an “up in the air” kind of thing, even though we both know this relationship will last. His parents are not close by but call him saying things like “what is she doing? Is she going to graduate? Are you ever going to own your own home? What is the point?” His parents have always been so kind, they have expressed many times they love me and include me in their family. However, realistically am I pulling him behind? If I made as much or just a little bit more money or had a career insight we could do all the things we wish too. Is this my fault? I’ve been super in my head about this and cannot find any closure.

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