I’d like to start from the very beginning so you can understand the entirety. My mom owned a school and he started attending when I was around 13… I pretty much immediately developed a crush on him, I tried hiding my feelings for him, although it was obvious to everyone. A few months later a girl (16f) came to the school and we became best friends… I later found out that her and him had lost their virginities to each other, and she told me in full detail how it happened, all while I still had a major crush on him. So a few months went by and she moved overseas… Him and I would go to a few parties together after that eventually leading to us hooking up… I was so excited cause I was finally getting attention from him- he liked me back! After a few months of us hooking up I was confused why he didn’t ask me out or want to see me outside of school. Turns out he had his eyes on someone else in the school (all while he was hooking up with me) So one day I was been talking to another girl in class, she told me he had asked another girl in the school out (keep in mind this school was in a out-house on my property) while talking to her about this and almost not believing what she was saying, I saw through a window him kissing the girl goodbye. I didn’t confront him, I messaged her just to let her know what had happened cause I felt she also deserved to know… he told her he never touched me and that I was obsessed with him. She believed him and made me feel terrible about ever telling her my truth. During this time he was writing his final exams so he pretty much left the school after all of this happened. So did she. About 10 months went by and he messaged me apologising for everything, I forgave him and we started chatting again… another few months went by of us hooking up and he still never asked me out… I told him I want someone serious and if he can’t give that to me I’m done for good… he never replied to my message. Then a few months later he messaged me to apologize again… I accept and agree to meet up with him, he asked me out pretty much immediately and that’s how our relationship started. I was still quite young at that point (17) but happy to start my life with him, I’d been chasing him for so long and finally we were dating. Now we’ve been together for 2 years and mostly everything has been great. Obviously still trying to heal from everything that happened. But we’ve been together so long now (2 and a half years) and I’ve learned he is a bit of a right wing conservative, I’m on the left side… so this has brought up quite a few disagreements… and the other day I had mentioned you can’t be racist towards white people, he disagreed, said that I am unwell mentally and that he can’t spend his life with someone who thinks you can’t be racist towards white people. He said I need to go see a psychologist. So he is coming today to chat to me about everything, I’m kind of expecting if I don’t change my mind on the matter he’ll break things off with me. It is just breaking my heart because I’ve tried so hard and fought for him and for years and he’s just disappointed me time and time again… Now he’s seeming to want a break up. I’m broken. Any advice? I just don’t know how to feel
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