I’m trying to change my mind but I always come up with the best arguments

I feel like I don’t know what life is supposed to be for me I’m just living but with no purpose I don’t want to find it because I’m scared I am lost but I’m afraid if I find what it is I’m supposed to do I’m going to fail So here I am just being comfortable in my depression Just no purpose at all Sometimes I think I’m okay but then I’m feeling terrible without even noticing how I got here I can’t be happy until I am comfortable with being myself But I’m not sure who that is yet I’m sitting here at the gym contemplating what my existence is and feeling mopey Why can’t I just be like these other people who look like they have goals Maybe they don’t and they are sitting and staring just like me wondering what their purpose is I am going to live and regret later because I haven’t been living and I’m still regretting Going to do what I can instead of paying special attention to what I can’t Unformedthoughts