I’m a daily smoker I’ve been going through a lot so I just get high and smoke the pain away. I just wanna change and be a better version of myself. I hate feeling depressed and feeling like my life is gonna fall apart. Sometimes I wanna die in my sleep. I use to medicate, lucid dream and have OBE when I was younger it was cool. But Now that I’m older life is getting harder, money, relationships everything just eats you man. I need to be happy I don’t care about money anymore obviously I’m not making enough, but 19 still struggling living with my parents so sometimes I just think about is money. I need help and I wanna better myself physically, mentally and spiritually. If I have to stop I can’t promise myself I’ll stop because I like smoking it pushes me through the day. I take shrooms also never meditated while tripping will that help? I kinda feel good typing this because it feel I’m actually talking to someone I have a girlfriend but she’s been stressful I have nobody else to go to. People I know I can’t to them because they don’t really care about spirituality it’s “Devilish”. I also want to practice Law of Attraction. Are there any smokers on here doing this? Or it doesn’t work like that?
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