Friday, 26 March 2021

Am I being a spoilsport or do I deserve some love and support?


I am a very anxious student. Recently we had our final exams in college and it is particularly hectic here. There are no holidays and practical exams literally go on for 12 long hours with multiple stations and cases to be presented to the professors on the spot. The professors aren't the kindest either. They are mean and say things that hurt us. So naturally I spent most of my days crying and worrying that I will not be able to do good. I haven't been able to sleep at nights as well. My parents are getting old so I didn't tell them about this as I didn't want them to worry about me. So I always told my boyfriend, who is pursuing the same course with me. I always hoped for some support. Because loneliness was the worst of whatever I felt during these times. But he'd be too busy for that. I understand he had his own exams so I didn't mind it. But it was only on the day the exams ended that I told him over the phone about everything, some mistakes I made in the tests and just hoped for a good cry and with all the time in the world, some love and support. But he just started to tell me how I am crying today as well. How he finds it unnecessary. I told him that most of my other friends have been really supportive about my situation. And he just told me that his mood was too good to be spoiled by me today. And stopped talking to me altogether.So yeah, am I being a spoilsport or do I deserve a good listen?

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