I used to deal with crippling loneliness many years ago.For years I have been dissatisfied with my social and love life, for extended periods of time. But not on the whole other qualitative level that is loneliness.But these last few nights it has snuck up on me. And tonight the overwhelming feeling of melancholy hit me.I can barely recall the last time I hugged someone.I just want to hug someone. I just want to hold someone. I just want to cuddle with someone.My mind is terrified of emotional connection, be they platonic or not, yet my heart aches for it so bad.I am scared to admit it. That I'm lonely. I have this almost superstitious belief that once I truly admit it, it will change how I feel. It will be the switch that knocks me completely over to the side of loneliness. Then it might be too late, as I'll be falling down the dark pit.
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