My (f28) fiance (m30) have been together for 8 years and overall we have a great relationship. We're best friends and are open with each other about pretty much everything.This weekend we were spending time together, having a few drinks and smoking weed. We eventually end up in the bedroom and start having sex. During sex he is doing me from behind and he says something that completely caught me so off guard I'm having trouble even typing it out right now.. He said that he was imagining me sucking my brother's dick while he was fucking me. He then said that him and my brother would switch positions and they would both cum so fast as soon as they did. He then came within like 30 seconds of saying that. As soon as he said it I was in such shock I basically just laid still until it was over.Afterwards I rolled over and couldn't look at him and he immediately asked if I was upset. I said I was a little upset and it completely threw me out of the mood (huge understatement). He said he was sorry and he was just cross faded and he felt bad. I think he could tell I was still upset and he apologized a few more times throughout the night and I eventually just said 'everything is fine' because I was still pretty tipsy and couldn't get my brain around what had happened.Now it's been over a day and I feel like my mind is still spinning. Besides my fiance, my brother is my best friend. We grew up in a bad home so I took care of him a lot growing up and I feel a maternal instinct to protect him. Now I feel weird about seeing him in the same room as my fiance, and grossed out wondering what my fiance is fantasizing. I also feel violated, like I was forced into this gross fantasy.I brought it up to him again today and at first he tried to downplay the whole thing, saying he felt like I was convicting him of thought-crime. I explained to him that I wasn't condemning him for his thoughts, but for roping me into something that was disturbing to me without my consent. He then switched gears and has been apologetic, saying he wasn't thinking, he's sorry and he will do anything to make it right.I would like advice on what to do from here. I don't even know how to feel about the whole thing, if this is at all normal or something anyone else experienced? I feel ashamed and alone. I am also really terrified that you are all going to say I shouldn't be getting married.
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