Kwaku & FairMormon videos are hurting. Please help.

New FAIR videos are hurting me. Please Help.I frequent post-mormon Twitter quite a bit, but needed to get some real answers so I made an account here to talk to you guys.The Kwaku FairMormon videos are causing me a lot of fuckin stress. I’ve been mentally out of the Church since I was 17, I’m 19 now. When I saw that FAIR was working with Kwaku, I laughed. Kwaku is nothing but a narcissistic douchey frat boy. So I humored myself and gave the Translation episode a watch. First let me make be candid that I wasn’t offended by the jokes. The jokes were dumb, and juvenile, but I watch Family Guy and Jackass so the humor was whatever. However after reading your posts on here, I do recognize that might be because of my age. Growing up I wasn’t allowed to watch anything rated R, so crass humor is something I love now. Anyway, wanted to to be straight up and honest with you.My problem is that Kwaku and the other guy, Ben, made a lot of claims I don’t wan’t to be true. Like the CES Letter’s claim that the JST Matthew 6:25 should match 3 Nephi 13:25, which matches with Matthew 6:25. They said Runnells was only looking at the numbers, and not the verse itself, and that the verse we were looking for was verse 28. So I went to centerplace.org( the JST online) to check it out and see.Kwaku was right. Verse 28 matched, with the other verses 25. Jeremy wasn’t comparing verses, only numbers, which is kind of embarrassing. The next day I go to show my friend, and centerplace.org which has been active for years is taken down. Thats kind of fucking weird guys. Kwaku tells us to go look at the JST online, and the only website that has it, goes private after his video referencing it comes out? And it just so happens to make the CES Letter look a little bad?So then I started watching the videos more. When I left the Church, the anachronism’s were a big part of me seeing TBOM as a fraud. The TITS anachronism video was quoting pre-columbian European explorers that validate claims about cattle in TBOM. I was confused because I assumed Kwaku was bullshitting, so I started googling, seeing that there is an entire series of books by non mormon academics, making the case that Indians did have access to more animals and equipment than we thought. Like some of them are old explorer journal entries, but some are essays and books from today. I thought the anachronism was a cut and dry case against TBOM, but there’s an entire non Mormon school of thought about Indians having a Rome-like society. Like, I looked up the fucking “Royal Commentaries” from 1600, and he’s saying the same shit that is in TBOM? Help me understand?There was a lot of stuff, but the polygamy video had the quote from Helen Marr Kimball, saying that her decision to marry Joseph wasn’t for this life. Why didn’t I know that? Like I frequent exmo sources a lot and nobody ever brought that up. I thought JS was actively molesting little girls, and then HMK says what she says, and stays in the Church? I thought she left the Church?? Apparently she stayed her whole life & became a Mormon author??Right now I’m freaking out. I shared the CES Letter with so many people, and now I feel like I’m reliving the grief I had with the Church because of the CES Letter, but with the CES Letter because of Kwaku. And I get on here to see some of you guys disprove it, and all I’m seeing is everyone bash on them, but like I wanna SEE how they are wrong. Are they misquoting sources? Are they lying about these Colonizers? I know they’re assholes, but someone needs to PROVE them wrong. Mormons my age are just as assholey as Kwaku, so if their audience is ...me... the assholeyness of the videos isn’t an issue. Like my family could never disprove the CES Letter and just said shit like “Exmormons are unhappy, they can leave the church but can’t leave it alone.” Without giving me evidence, and I’m seeing the same thing here. You’re just ripping on TITS (to be fair, I’ve ripped on Kwaku a lot too lol) but not giving any evidence proving them wrong. moThe last thing I want to feel is like I made the wrong choice and I’m going to Hell, and this is the first time in 2, almost 3 years I’ve felt like that. My friend sent the videos to me (not realizing I already watched them) saying that they are funny and are “something to think about.” The videos are going around Provo and Orem, and people think it’s funny. Like you guys here are bashing it, but the kids my age are using it as a “Fuck Libs. Fuck Exmormons” kind of thing. The last thing I want is for Mormons my age to start bullying ex members with Kwaku talking points, and I can see it coming. This fucking guy got thousands of people to go to parties during COVID. Like, people here listen to him, and the fact that he doesn’t care who he pisses off makes people here like him more.I’ve been having a breakdown for a couple days now. I was so sure The Church was false & now I’m questioning if I’M the fuck up or not. Can you guys please disprove these videos??