I have been exploring myself lately but MBTI has been the biggest gray area for me. Please help!How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.I am 17 (almost 18), I am female and identify as such. People say I'm easy to get along with. However, there are some ways that my personality seems to conflict. People say I'm warm and an open book but in the same breath they will say that I am cold and mysterious.Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?I've never been formally diagnosed; however (through recent self-analysis and reflection) I realized I may have experienced trauma that resulted in emotional detachment on my part. But that's just a theory... a psychology theory! lmao.Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?I had a good relationship with my parents, pretty easy childhood. I was an only child until I was 10. My family never really participated in a religion. I see myself as agnostic. I always enjoyed the freedom of not being tied down to any specific set of values some religions have. However, having an agnostic viewpoint has made me hide my opinions on religion from most people.What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?I am still in high school but I want to pursue a job in the field of biology, specifically wildlife or marine. Right now the closest thing I have to a job is volunteering at my local aquarium and I love it.If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?I would probably be fine, I do like my alone time. I do enjoy my friends and my family and I would probably miss them towards the end of the weekend though.What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like it, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?I like making art (digital and traditional), writing, swimming, being in nature, watching youtube, boogie boarding, sometimes researching, ASL, and playing with animals. I was on the swim team for some time so I'm not bad at sports, I just wasn't as good as it as others. I like both indoor and outdoor activities, it's hard to choose honestly.How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?I would say I'm curious. I definitely have more ideas than finished projects. I am curious about science and situations (if that makes sense). Like most of my ideas are about stories or characters and how they interact. I also like to think about the philosophical aspect of things. I can also come up with solutions to a problem when necessary.Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?Not to toot my own horn, but I did get selected to go to a leadership camp. But seriously, I can and will take on a leadership role if the situation calls for it and I feel capable. Even when I don't take lead I usually end up as a "shadow leader". Most of the projects I have been the leader have ended well. My leadership style leans toward democratic and participative.Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?I think I'm fairly coordinated. I think I am just as much clumsy and coordinated. I like working hands-on, it helps me learn and understand. For example, I enjoy dissections in biology and such.Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particularly artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forms of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.Yes. As I mentioned before I do traditional and digital art. I usually have a realistic if not semi-realistic style and I may play with color or ideas. I mostly have human, animal, or plant subject matter.What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?The past is unchangeable, I know that but I can't help but dwell on it at times. I should be more involved in the present than I am, I'm working on it. I think that the future can be scary to consider but it can be changed. I try not to be caught up in worrying about the past, present, or future. I have always thought that you can die tomorrow or 80 years from tomorrow and that you can choose to be worried or to live. I would rather not be caught up and just live day by day.How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?I usually help no questions asked. The only exceptions are if I feel like I'm not qualified to help ( then I try to point them in the right direction) or my siblings (they ask for help frequently and it can get frustrating). I help because people ask if people want my opinion it must be for a reason. That doesn't stop me from sugar-coating or expressing half-truths tho.Do you need logical consistency in your life?Not really? I kind of enjoy not knowing what will happen next or trying to predict what will happen. Oddly, I enjoy a little stress.How important is efficiency and productivity to you?I don't see myself as very efficient or productive, but I do like finding ways to do things easier. This is especially true when it comes to technology.Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?To be honest, I do find myself manipulating situations every now and then. I like to drop hints to get my way. For example, I have said, "We haven't had (insert restaurant or food) in a while..." before we actually talk about what to do for lunch and dinner. Also, I don't try to but I can manipulate how others perceive me. I do this because I feel less guilty about asking for things or to feel safer.What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?My main hobbies are art, watching youtube, or video games. I do them because I like them. Art is a way for me to get my thoughts out. Watching youtube is either educational, to relax or to laugh. playing video games is usually a way to hang out with friends.What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?I was originally an auditory learner but I have turned more visual (I think it was because of learning ASL). I struggle most with learning from a textbook or classes where the teacher doesn't make it fun. I do fine with classes with memorization as if I get a concept like Biology. I didn't like physics but do like logic. I love creative classes if you couldn't already tell. I enjoyed taking ASL and I guess that counts as physical.How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?I'm good at strategizing in life but not in projects like art. For school projects, I tend to improvise and procrastinate. However, 8/10 projects meet or exceed expectations even when I improvise.What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?I want to succeed in life, but I also want to enjoy it. Professionally, I want to find a job, money is nice but it isn't everything. Personally, I want happiness, whatever that is to me at that point.What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?I fear expressing my true thoughts, even as simple as my music taste. I have a fear of being wrong, not so much failure. Fighting, extreme opinions, (to some extent) sympathy, and expressing my feelings make me uncomfortable. Hate is a strong word and I hate using it lmao. I really am trying to come up with things I hate but just can't... anything that comes to mind just seems too generic.What do the "highs" in your life look like?I am happy. Usually brief, but I feel at peace and life seems easy. Oddly enough, they revolve around nature.What do the "lows" in your life look like?I'm numb, frustrated, and want to be alone (even more so than normal). Probably the lowest point in my life recently was the passing of my childhood dog. She died about a year ago and I'm not sure if I am over it yet. We were together since I was 3 and I found it really hard to say goodbye. I knew I needed help but I could allow myself to burden others. I only cried openly twice all the other times were silent and by myself. I don't even think my closest friends know how hurt I was. I don't blame them tho, I wouldn't let myself share. A part of my mind said it was a silly reason to be upset, or that I shouldn't ruin the mood.How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?I tune in and out. Alone I daydream more. When I daydream I usually know that I am. However, I can feel numb to the wold without daydreaming.Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?I would start to think about practical things but it would become more abstract. I would probably start coming up with interesting situations, a project I haven't started, or some philosophical thing.How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?Depends on if I have thought about it before and how long my decision will affect me. If I just got told to make a decision that will affect me years to come I will take a long time. If I have thought about it before it will usually be swift. I can change my mind, but not usually in a drastic way.How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?uhhh emotions? The bane of my existence... I can never pinpoint my emotions and it's difficult for me to label them. I do feel them, I think? Like I can know that I'm sad or happy but I can't let myself feel them, enjoy them, or dwell in them. If I'm happy I think about what could go wrong. When I'm sad I either push it away or tell myself that other people have it worse. I also have a habit of hiding behind my humor.Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?YES. I might not necessarily agree but I will either entertain the idea or let the other person think I agree. I know it is harmful and could be seen as toxic but I hate disagreeing, conflict, or being judged. Sometimes I feel like I do it in every conversation, but that is also because right now the two groups I talk to have very different opinions on things. I'm more in the middle or undecided. It sucks because both sides think I'm an angel where I feel like a fake.Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?Generally, I follow rules. Authority does need to be challenged sometimes though because they don't know better sometimes. I follow rules because it's easier and in most cases, I know that it is temporary. I will support movements if I am particularly invested, truly believe my opinion is better or if there is a fighting chance.and yes I am a 9 enneagram... could you tell?
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