Girlfriend Left me, this is Hard. (Day 50+)

Hi. Had to check in and share because I am not feeling well right now. 29yo, addicted to PMO for well over 15 years.. every night I would do it before going to bed. It took me years to reach such a good streak and I currently have no desire at all to relapse. Doing this no matter what. I now exercise 4-5 Days a week and my Body is starting to look and feel much better. Good Thing. Social Anxiety has improved alot and it's strange to explain but I do not have this feeling of ''Shame'' anymore.. even if I have a Bad Day at least I can say to myself I didn't Jerk off like a loser alone in front of my computer. The outcome doesn't matter I am a No Fapper now.Last Weekend my Girlfriend Left me, hit me like a fucking train. My brain has been Foggy since then and cannot think clearly, I feel like I was inadequate for her and I am not taking this easily. Deep down I know I wasn't and the only way to get over all this is overcome the obstacles ahead and become a better men for another women. It's strange because even if I wish she would still be with me I have some sort of relief because now I can Focus on self improvement and NoFap. I am currently in what you guys call the Flatline and it hasn't been easy. Sexually dead right now, libido in the dirt and no morning woods. Went to the doctor last week and I am doing tests but so far everything seems to be working Properly. I also have insomnia, I sleep around 4-5 hours a night but I wake up with more energy than before.So yeah here I am.. going to day 90+ and then I just leave all Porn and Masturbation behind. I will give myself a chance to find another great relationship but for now I rather stay alone and improve myself.If anyone else went through the Flatline I would appreciate to know when did you got your libido back. I still have scars down there, mental scars. When something is hurt you leave it alone and let it heal and I am feeding my body and mind with all the tools to do so.Starting Meditation and will quit Caffeine now to reduce anxiety and sleep better. Stay Strong ✌️