I have a mild form of CP , It's hard for me to form relationships. I only have a few friends that I'am thankful for but sometimes I feel like my message doesn't come out right because I may be monotone, and have robotic voice at times. And also I have jerky, twitchy, robotic movements, and other body language issues like being hard to read with issues doing the correlating facial expression(Comes in handy with poker tho oddly). I don't want to look "weird" or odd and don't want to throw people off and be scared of me, I don't want them to be uncomfortable, it makes me feel bad to put them in that position. But I feel like I try to give people my best but its gets me flustered after a while . I try new things and try to get people to go and do things with me or even in groups but dunno no luck.some other things is I have anxiety after bullying and assumptions people have made about me like, O he must be on drugs, gay, mental or other baseless things I heard in passing, and this anxiety with CP kills me mentally and physically,But I am going to a psychologist to help myself and he tells me people with CP have issues with this kind of stuff as well. which is enlightening. So I was kinda wondering how do you guys cope with this and how to better myself as a person, ps Im a 20 year old dude in college, I understand I have time to better myself, its just painful to have alot of defeat and little wins.
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