Hey everyone. I started smoking weed when i was 18, it was all just a bit of fun at first then before i knew it, it became everyday. I smoked like this for 4 years. Anyway, i had a difficult time with life and decided to go to Australia and see some family and travel a bit. I quit my job and booked a returning flight in 3 months time. For that whole time i didnt smoke, not even a cigarette. The first few days i only experienced a bit of excessive sweating, i didnt feel any urges and the only time i thought about weed was when i could smell it from others smoking it. I was constantly busy, doing stuff i really enjoyed, and i felt on top of the world.After the 3 months, i got home and felt really positive about my future, i was a new man, although more than gutted to be home again. Oz > Scotland. All my friends who i hung out with were wanting to see me, and catch up about my time away, but they all suggested a catch up over weed. All of a sudden i have cravings, and before i knew it i fell back into the trap.Fast forward a year and a half and i am sat here hating my current situation, my plans i made for coming back home didnt get started and i hate myself for it.I dont understand how i had 0 cravings when i was away, smelling it didnt even really bother me. I could easily have said no to my friends, but i couldnt and my cravings took total control of me. I cant get my head around it, am i just mentally weak? Sorry for long post i just feel a bit hopeless at the moment.
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