I’ve been severely depressed for as long as I remember. I don’t really have an emotional connection to any characters but I did want to get and +10 Elise. I saved 220 orbs for Elise before recent Bridal Banner started. Spent 80 first day to get bad IV Ninian. I was ok for a bit and saved back to 220 until two days ago my brain convinced me Elise wouldn’t come back for a while and the I could save again. 100 Orbs later I get Shiro, Deirdre, and B!Sanaki on Banner with no good IV Ninian. I have 150 orbs and I was going to skip Ryoma Legendary Banner. I see his stats and as a flier emblem main I almost had the willpower to resist it but didn’t. 0 Orbs for Elise. 11.50% on Banner. I can’t do anything right. I might have a bad impulse problem. I would delete it but I would hate the idea of losing out on potential orbs, and my life without this game would be boring. This game gives me a schedule so I can continue to look forward to things. I really only have one other game I play other than this and I’m not really interested in that either. Right now FEH seems to be the only thing keeping me from maybe literally dying of boredom because of how depressed and boring life is. I think I should leave the subreddit so I don’t get stat crazy and start actually saving for Elise. If I didn’t have a flier addiction I could have 500 Orbs right now and an actual start towards my simple only goal in life. I know a dumb game is a pathetic goal but it’s all I have.
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