Confused transgirl(?) here with a LOT of questions.

Where do we start?I just had a breakdown. I believe that is worth mentioning. The breakdown was over different stresses in my life in the past several weeks, the paramount of which was my gender identity. I've been having doubts over whether or not I'm "truly trans" or whatever. So here's some questions.I have absolutely no qualms with my dick, in fact, I quite like it. Is this possible while still being transgender?Sometimes I feel like my gender identity is not truly female, and this is all just a fetish. Is this normal?several months ago, my "dysphoria" (in quotations because I'm not entirely sure it was dysphoria) was much worse. Since then, I have been put on antidepressants and it has since gone down to an almost unnoticeable level. Is this evidence that I am not trans? Despite all this, if i could start my transition tomorrow, I would jump at the opportunity.Footnote on my "dysphoria": What I would describe as dysphoria was a deep seated despair and discomfort anytime I would notice anything particularly masculine about myself. Whether it be in my face, or in my genitalia. I used to really really hate my dick, to the point where I wouldn't let my boyfriend touch it. But now, I have almost no apprehension about it.