I am worried about the fact that one exam, one single score, determines so much of my future. The fact that some law schools will glance and see I achieved less than a 160, and therefore believe I am not worthy of an acceptance, is worrisome.This is my future. I am a person- not a score, not a number on a standardized test.I have worked hard and succeeded academically most of my life. Began studying for the LSAT in May. I have studied and taken practice exam after practice exam, reviewing reading comp structure, understanding the different types of flaws, practicing the set ups for every type of logic game… I have prepared as well as I possibly can. The simple fact here is: I am not a good standardized test taker. This exam is a marathon.The quote, “If you judge a fish based on its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing it is stupid” really resonates with me tonight. I am a strong applicant in every other aspect- my GPA, my work experience, my letters of recommendation. The scores I’ve achieved on the timed exams I’ve given myself have been decent, but test day pressure is an entirely different kind of experience. With 15 minutes more per section, I am achieving a score of 168 on the LSAT. I am capable, I know what to look for. I second guess myself and become overwhelmed, and these feelings of insecurity get in the way for me.I just feel that so much of my future is going to be determined in a few hours from now. I know that this score is not necessarily dictating my entire future, but it does determine what kind of practical experience I’ll have, the networking opportunities I will have, jobs I can get out of law school… its just stressful and I’m worried and anxious and sad.
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